All This Time

I knew you loved me
I chose to go
I knew that you would find me
But I pretended not to know
It wasn't coz I was unhappy
It wasn't coz I was blind
Or could I have been when I said

I'm gonna let the wind blow

Leave the past behind

The memories will do just fine

They'll saturate in time

I'm gonna make it on my own

Make it on my own

I took the highway built on sand

I knew you'd be there for me

But I refused to hold your hand

The going's good all around me

But deep inside I can't find a reason

To live without you

But can I let the wind blow?

Leave the past behind?

The memories they cloud my mind

I know I crossed the line

Should I just journey on alone

I can't bear to find

The pain I caused you all this time

When I look in your eyes

I'm gonna let the with blow

Leave the past behind

The memories will do just fine

They'll saturate in time

Don't have to make it on my own

Coz in your eyes I find

The tears that love me all this time

All this time

You loved me

All This Time

Why Oh Why....

The moments I can't pretend
The sorry's I should have sent
The thought of you being in
Despair tears my heart out right away
I just wasn't prepared

Imperfection that's what I am

Confusion just took it's stand

I guess that I shouldn't pretend

To love you anyway

I won't give up again

So tell me why oh why

Should there be a reason to love

Why oh why.....

I don't need another

I want nothing else but being with you

And with you I know why

The one thing I'll take with me

The eyes that smile so tenderly

Everytime I think about you

You make everything seem right

You make wishes come true

If only I knew what you needed was some love

I could have given you the best that you deserve

There's no one else I'd rather share my life than with you

Think of what's between us, and love will help to guide us

Why oh why.....

Should there be a reason to love

Why oh why.....

I don't need another

I want nothing else but being with you

And with you I'll know why

There are so many things to say and to do. Sometimes we might ask why.

Wishing For You....

It often doesnt matter how it starts,

The best things can happen with a gentle touch

I'm not ashamed to say I would be more than okay

If by some chance you'd just ask me to stay

Do I see a twinkle of hope that's in your eyes?

When you smile it feels so right, its no suprise

It's only you and I under the stars of tonight

Do we dare take it to where it feels right?

~How do I see, what's right for me?

Do I deny what's inside?~

If I had wings I would fly,

Lifting my souls to the sky

If I had nine lives to live

Wish I had you to be with

If I could make dreams come true

Of all the things I would do

I know that I would be

Wishing For You

Don't get me wrong,

I don't live a life of dreams

But sometimes it's easier for me

Why does it feel so right

Believing it day and night

Wishing that someday you

Might be with me

If I can, probably I would be wishing for you, but I don't know if I should think about it anymore. It hurts alot, I wanna let go, but it seems like I'm not really willing to, but I have to let it go somehow. I'm sorry.

Part Of A Fool....

I've been there before and I just can't let go

The memories and pain of the hurt I know

Now deep in the night, and there's passion inside

Dare I follow my heart??

An innocent smile, then a walk in the night

Then it's dinner at home served with candlelight

And it's been quite awhile since I felt good inside

Dare I follow my heart??

Do I feel something special inside of you??

Do I know what you really think of me??

And the raindrops keep falling into my heart

And I just can't deny what feels so right

Do I let myself go and feel the rain?

Or should I play with caution and refrain?

Whatever I do, when it comes to you

I know sometimes love plays the

part of a fool

I know what's instore though I can't say much more

A chance worth the taking has opened its doors

And I can't say I love you, and I can't say I don't

But I do wish I knew

I do wish I knew what was going wrong and try to make it right, but it seems that you don't want to know what was going wrong and to try to make it right....sometimes people are just being a fool and being so stubborn....do I dare to follow my heart and do what I really want to do??

Title-less....T_T

Why do things always have to go this way?? I mean, I know its life, but it doesn't have to be like this all the time right?? Why do things get worse when we don't try to settle it, or why does it have to be this way when we try to do the right thing?? I always tell myself to not think too much and to just leave it to God coz He's the only One who knows what to do about it....and I always tell my friends that too, but sometimes even I cant control myself but made the wrong choice. Life may not be what it seems to be, like some people may think that life is all about having fun to the max or not just care much about anything...but what some of them may never know its that life can be really hard at times and its not what you think it is. In life, you would require to go through many obstacles, until, probably the day you die. I've come across people who never really care much about their life. They just do whatever they want and sometimes, not even thinking about the consequences, and when things start to go the other way, they grumble and complain and so on. See, humans cant stop learning. As each new day comes, they are, or probably learning new things, some of which is the most important things in life. Humans can be quite foolish and stubborn sometimes, but what can you say or do about it?? They're HUMANS right?? They have a choice, whether its right or wrong they still have the right to make a choice. Thats why God made us and He gave each and every one of us a free will, we can either choose to follow Him or to not follow Him, but in the end, you'll have to bear the consequences. So, why do you still wanna make the wrong choice?? You've already know that the consequences are like that, why do you still want to be stubborn and make the wrong decision?? It wont do you any good, in fact, it'll ruin your life, not until you know how to make the right choice. Humans often depend on each other, and if you know how to go to the right person, it wont be a bad choice, but if you go to the wrong person, it wont be a good choice either. So, whenever we want to do something or say something, make sure you think properly before you do or say it, coz you might never know whats gonna happen after you've done or say it, but at least if you think properly, things might not go as worse as you think it will be, or at least it wont be as bad as when you've did or say the wrong thing. Somehow or rather people will come to understand that they're wrong and should've listen to you. But oh well, sometimes people are just too stubborn to go and bother about all this, but hey, at least you know you've did the right thing. You're not trying to make things worse, you're just trying to help and hoping that things wont go as bad as some people think it might, although through the process, there might be some hurts and pains. But its life isnt it?? You would have to make some sacrifices sometimes in order to make things right. You wouldnt want to make it worse, dont you?? Try asking yourself this questions, "What is life without pain? What is life without making any sacrifices once in awhile? What is life without hope? What is life without failing?" Then its not call life anymore. There is no one whose life is perfect, except Jesus of coz. Throughout life you'll make mistakes, you'll fail and felt like you have no hope. But why cant you just be positive about it?? So what if you fail?? Get up and try again until you succeed, and of coz there's always hope. Hope for the good, not for the bad. Life can be tough, but if you want to make it easier, you can. It all depends on how you handle things or how you look at things the way they are. It dont have to be very bad or with much hurt. Its just really simple. It all depends on you. The choice is in your hands. There's this phrase that goes something like this, "The greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising everytime you fall/fail." Its one of the phrase that keeps me going whenever I fail. But hey, who on earth never fails??(besides Jesus) Life dont have to be this way unless you think its like that. Just look(or think) over the bright side of things whenever it happens. Life dont need to be miserable, just ponder about the things that make you happy or whatever that can make you not think about life being so miserable. Its just that simple(but some people have to made it sound like its a big deal). For example like LOVE. Its also just really simple. Havent you heard of LOVE conquers all things?? Of coz, it also depends on how you think of it as it is. There can be love in the family, friends, etc. Not just in between couples or whatever. But the greatest love of all is Jesus. Its all just so so so simple, but some people just have to go make it sound complicated by making up stories which can be quite confusing sometimes. Don't you think its stupid when actually everything is just so simple?? You wont get confused too. And better make sure you dont get confused about it and make sure that you know whats going on and what to do. Ask for help( preferably someone older than you) when you think its kinda confusing. Don't try to settle it alone(you can, but) sometimes it'll make things worse. So yea, its all up to you to make that choice. No one can make that choice for you, they can only give advises or their opinions, but in the end its all up to YOU.

~tHe EnD~

Updates....from last posting date....

Ok, have not post anything since the last posting date which is the 19th of Feb....shall update now...LOL!! On the 23rd of Feb, went for Sarah's bday at her house....this year is somewhat different from last year's....last year she had a pool partay...with lotsa ppl, and this year is rather quiet....more of a small gathering i guess....7th of March, last day of school, went to Ming Tien with Shab, Beeps, Isaac, Gwen, Sherlyn and my bro....we ate and talked and took some pics, i think, then we laughed too....did something stupid, not me but them...lol...XD 10th of March, went out with Jordan, Gwen, Sherlyn, my bro, Abigail and Sherlyn to 1U, went for lunch....then met up with Shab, David, Isaac and Beeps, after David left, we walked around for awhile, then headed to the cinema, we watched Step Up 2: The Streets. It was awesome man, I love the movie alot....after the movie, we all went back home....11th of March, started practicing for Aunt Min's bday held yesterday, 15th. 12th of March, went out with my aunt and bro, watched 10,000 BC, it was quite nice though....then suppose to join my friend from my ex-school which we havent seen each other for 4 years...wow, so long, but cant coz have to go back for practice, so we just met up and chatted for awhile, so nice to see her again...miss her so much, Lol, then rushed and bought a birthday card for Zoe Lim, coz it was her birthday, then went to TGIF and pass it to her, saw Tammy and Janielle there, said hi, took pics, then went to meet up with my aunt....on the way back, went to pick up Shab, came back home, started practicing, and it was not bad.....13th of March, went to school at noon, then went and pick Shab and Isaac, went to check out the place that we're performing at, at Eastin Hotel....took some pics there, went for tea time, went home, practice and practice and practice.....14th of March, Shab came at noon, we started practicing while waiting for Isaac to come, then about half and hour later, Isaac came and we went for lunch....came back, practice and practice again....quite tiring though because of all this, I didnt have enough rest....got headache....finally the day we've been waiting for arrived....15th of March, woke up, went to pick Shab at noon, went to Eastin to check out the place and then we set up and started practicing....(we need to check the sound system and everything, thats why) at about 3, some ppl came and set up the music stuffs and the spotlight or whatever it is, put up the backdrop, it was really nice....then at about 4, went back home, have a quick shower, pack up and rushed back to Eastin coz Isaac was waiting for us there....have one last practice, then me and Shab went up to Aunt Min's room to change and blaa blaa blaa, went back down, took some pics, get ready, more and more ppl coming, then at about 8 something, the buffet dinner started, we ate first, then at 9, we started performing, was quite nervous though, but we all did great.....the last song we did for Aunt Min was of coz the Happy Birthday song, me and Shab sang, accompanied by my bro, doing the beatbox....after it ends, Uncle Patrick, (Aunt Min's husband) said something funny about my bro..."A chinese boy ah, with glasses, doing all this beatbox thing, very different lah..." Haha, we all laughed....the crowd was quite satisfied with our performance though....*pheeww* then 4 ppl came out and gave a speech about Aunt Min, cut cake, we took the cake and went out to this place near the pool and ate there and took pics, chatted, then my friend, Michelle, joined us too....went back in and took more pics, chatted, laughed, then went home around 11.30....wow, a tiring day, but it ws worth it la.....after all the hard and tiring practices, it came out great....I'm satisfied...oh and by the way, Aunt Min is my mum's classmate since primary....so yea....the end, pics coming up soon!! Stay tune....(",)
Thanks Shab and Isaac for helping out....love you guys, and Bro, you did great last night, the beatbox and all...love so tons!! Muaxx....God bless ya'all!! Bye.....(hope you all enjoy the post and the pics coming soon)